Wednesday, November 7, 2012

A little panicky

I wrote this last night when I couldn’t sleep because of my fear, anxiety, worry, confusion and uncertainty.

Yes, God is in control, but it's difficult to see His path clearly when it's all so dark. I don't know how we'll make it through but I know we will because we are children of God.

I read Bible verses on peace. 

Matthew 11:28-30 Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”

John 14:27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.

John 16:33 I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.”

Some of my friends don’t understand my worry.  I’m just being a “poor loser”.  I’m exaggerating.  The changes will make a better difference…

I wasn’t raised to let others take care of me when I can take care of myself (that’s why I struggle with me vs. God).  I don’t understand those who welcome ‘someone else’ taking care of their every need.  I’d rather do it myself – face the responsibility AND take the blame if I’m wrong.

I’m not sure that the difference that’s coming will be better for those of us that still believe in doing it ourselves.  I’m not sure that there will be much of a country left in another four years.  I’m not sure that my children will have any future to look forward to other than dependency and working for the betterment of everyone. 

I’m afraid that choices will be limited, if not completely done away with, unless you want to choose to live or die. 

I’m afraid that it won’t be too long before people who speak their mind, hold to their principals and face responsibility will be imprisoned for their beliefs. 

God is Holy and just and loving.  Man is evil and greedy and hateful.  God is perfect, we are not. 

Hard changes coming and I just need to remember He's got me in His hand. Lord, please give me peace and the wisdom, knowledge to follow the right path. Please help me, Lord.

Romans 8:6 For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace.

Colossians 3:15 And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful.

Yeah though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil...

Thursday, November 1, 2012

How I vote


My mother used to vote a straight Republican ticket.  If they had an “R” next to their name, she selected them as her candidate.  My voting process is not so straight forward, which makes it more challenging and requires more thought.  Although I do tend to vote a fairly aligned conservative/republican ballot, my decisions involve many factors:

Party Preference
Yes, I’ll admit it’s the first thing I look at.  No, it isn’t the deciding factor, but it’s either one point for or one point against. 

Candidate Statement
I read these, usually several times.  I HATE when there’s no statement.  I think it ought to be a requirement than when you run for office you put in some kind of statement.  As I don’t know each of the candidates personally, how am I supposed to know who they are without a statement?

Business/Office Experience
Has the candidate been doing this same office for a number of years?  We need a change.  I usually vote for the one that hasn’t been doing the same position for a number of years.  The only exception to this is judges. 

Endorsements
This usually is the “closer” for me.  Based on my personal beliefs, experiences and choices, I usually find a point or an organization that helps me choose where the candidates priorities lie.  It’s a pretty good tell for me how the candidate is going to support (or not) my interests.

In the end, if I just can’t decide, I just mark the one that most closely aligns with my beliefs.  Yes, I have voted for a party other than my own; and I usually pay for that decision in the end (Maria Cantwell comes to mind…).

Voting isn’t easy – it shouldn’t be.  It means we need to stay informed on the issues, vote with our hearts and yes, pray about the candidates.  Voting means we need to take the time to listen to all side of the news, investigate a bit on the candidates and the initiatives, and read between the lines sometimes.

Vote because you have the privilege to voice your opinion.  Vote because you don't like how things are going (or you do).  Vote because you can.  But get out there and VOTE!

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Silence

So, apparently I wasn't supposed to tell people that we're cutting back on expenses and that eating out with a large group wasn't really in the budget.

Apparently, people trying to live within their means are supposed to take this vow of silence, and keep it quiet without letting anyone know.

Because no one else is too chicken to say "We can't afford it." or "We choose not to spend our money that way."

Instead I'm supposed to quietly ask for help from "those that can afford it" instead of letting everyone know my feelings.

Sorry, that doesn't work for me.  I said that WE wouldn't be participating because it wasn't in OUR budget.  And, I'm not too proud to ask for help, but that wasn't the point of the conversation.  Hopefully, someone else -- someone who is less comfortable voicing their opinion -- is struggling with keeping a tight rein on their finances too.

It's not the end of the world.  It's just dinner and we choose not to participate due to finances.  If it makes you uncomfortable that I talk about my finances or lack thereof, that's your issue and not mine.



The other day, while driving around (which I do a LOT), my mind wandered (it does that A LOT) to how else we could be cutting back on expenses.  Like many families, we are trying to stem the flow of our hemorrhaging bank accounts while continuing to live. 

It occurred to me, again, how expensive children are.  Parents-to-be and new parents are usually quite astounded at the cost of diapers, labor and delivery, and baby food; not to mention stroller, crib and clothing.  But, the costs only grow as the kids do.

Currently, I have two “children” living at home; one who is 14.  He, like his siblings before him have come to expect certain creature comforts like his own room, an un-ending supply of peanut butter, nuttella and sandwich bread; among other luxuries.

Organized sports are a luxury modern day kids seem to accept as a “necessity”.  We have participated in soccer, basketball, little league and football over the years.  All of these sports come with costs – physical, financial, emotional and time.  Sports are good for teaching team-building and good sportsmanship, skills and physical maturity.  It’s a great place to make friends and learn about the kinds of people you don’t want to hang out with. 

And, it’s financially expensive.  I ran a quick report on the sports expenses for this calendar year.  This year he’s only been involved in one sport, so it wasn’t a long list, but it was kind of…enlightening.  Over a sports season there are all kinds of costs that add up to a pretty big chunk of a budget.  Don’t believe me?  Here are my “facts”:

We start the year out by registering for football. 

Football Registration                            $300.00                   -- non-refundable, due before season begins.  This includes uniform pants, jersey with name, helmet and shoulder pads.

Then there are sporting goods like shoes, mouth guards, rib pads, girdle, knee pads, gloves, armbands, socks.  He grew out of last year’s shoes and gloves and the socks never make it more than one year so we have to buy those “new” every year.  Yes, I’ve tried used shoes, but I haven’t been fortunate enough to find friends with children whose shoes fit my child.  And, instead of driving around 16 places, I save gas and shop at just a few places.  He goes through 2-3 mouth guards each season; we had rib pads and kneepads from last year. 

Athletic Supplies (Various)                 $315.00

We’ve been fortunate to have most of our games on the “Eastside”; but out of 8 games, only three have been on our home turf.  We’ve had to drive to the other games, but have been fortunate to only have one “distant” game – Bainbridge Island.  We have to go there again this weekend for “playoffs” (we’re last in the league – what’s the point?).  Bainbridge Island is accessible by ferry boat or by driving around.  Both are pretty expensive, but driving around costs a lot of time in the car, so we chose the monetarily expensive ferry ride.  A little tourism with our football.

Driving to the ferry terminal in Seattle means we have to choose between two bridges; one a toll-bridge and one not.  We chose the toll-bridge because it’s closer and, well, as creatures of habit, the few times we drive to Seattle, we take this bridge.  Because we forgot to pay ahead for the toll online, there was an additional charge.  This weekend when we go, I’ve registered for the online toll, which is cheaper in the long run, but I had to put a balance online to activate the account.

“Good to Go”                                            $6.46                        -- driving across and back the first weekend
                                                                        $30.00                       -- set up account w/ balance for the 2nd weekend

Based on all the driving over the season, I calculated that we used approximately one tank of gas.  I used a tank for the cheaper vehicle because that’s the one we usually use on the weekends.

Fuel (Estimated)                                      $60.00

The Washington State Ferry system charges for Driver plus passengers on the way out of Seattle, but only driver and car on the way back.

Ferry (To Bainbridge IS)                       $73.00                      -- this represents two trips over
Ferry (To Seattle)                                    $32.80                      -- this represents two trips back

And then, there are the other expenses like snacks.  We have to be an hour early for the games for weigh-in; then sit around while the boys warm up and the game before us finishes up.  Sometimes it’s a nice day with sunshine; mostly it’s wet or damp and cold and windy.  I’ve packed snacks from the fridge to tide us over for the approximately 2 hour game, plus the hour wait at the beginning; sometimes I’ve brought coffee in a thermos or popcorn (Trails-end of course!).  Sometimes we purchase a coffee or a meal on the road, but again, we’re trying to cut back so I had to plan ahead a bit.

Snacks                                                          $40.00

The league has a photo day every year.  It’s voluntary to purchase a photo, but it’s nice to have something relatively professional to add in to all the phone and digital camera photos that we take.  We purchase a team photo package and four magnets which we give to the older sisters and a neighbor.  We don’t have grandparents to send photos to, so it saves us a bit.

Photos                                                         $42.50

And then there are the expenses that aren’t expected but necessary.  The league is big on concussion recognition, so every time a kid gets hit or hurt, there’s the check-over by a team dad (who in our case happens to be a doctor).  On a particularly hot day, Blake got hit in the game and complained of a headache.  We all figured it was dehydration (WHY won’t they drink water when you tell them to?), but because of league rules we had to have him checked out by a doctor in a medical facility before he could practice or play again. 

Emergency Room Visit                          $20                             -- verify Blake did not have a concussion -- Co-pay

So what’s the grand total for this entire year (actually just 5 months – June through October) of football?

$866.86                                                       GULP!   That’s almost One-thousand dollars.


I haven’t even added in the season-end costs of coach gifts or the year-end “party”.  I’ll put that at roughly another $50, although if the “party” is dinner out, it will be closer to $100 (meal for three plus coach gifts). 

And I haven’t calculated the sports costs for the last 9 years or added in the costs for the next four.  That’s “a grand” just for one 5 month period of time in one child’s life.

Guess I’ll have to find another way to cut costs…maybe in my “next life” I’ll cut costs by not having kids.  J


Saturday, September 29, 2012

Netbooks in every home


Recently LWSD made the decision to convert our schools from physical (paper) text books to net books for all students grades 6-12.  Phased roll-out to the schools included Inglewood and Rose Hill Junior High schools (now Middle Schools) among others.  Roll-out in phases was done to accommodate the learning curve for staff and to allow technical support to work out the bugs in a smaller test group before issuing the net books district-wide.

Netbooks are a small, lightweight laptop computer.  There are no “traditional” (non-USB) ports; although there are USB ports for thumb or mini-drives, printer connections and other plug-ins (peripherals) needed by a user.  The school netbooks will come pre-loaded with security and anti-virus software, online textbooks and are pretty “locked-down” as to things that could be uploaded by the user or accessed on the internet.

According to Kathryn Reith, Communications Director for Lake Washington School District, the “the funds for these machines come from the technology portion of the capital projects levy that was passed in the 2010 election. This program was part of the planned expenditures from that levy.”  There were additional costs incurred for textbooks (physical) and online licensing, OS and security software, but those were also covered in the CP levy.

As the netbooks are rolled-out to specific schools, parents will receive documentation including a Handbook, Agreement and Parent Letter/FAQ.

Netbooks usage will be handled in two ways:  Parents will sign and complete the agreement and pay for insurance in order to allow their student to take the netbook home; students with families who choose not to pay for insurance or sign the agreement will check the netbooks in and out of class every day, similar to checking out a library book.

The District has stated that families that do not have internet access or have security concerns about the netbooks may keep the netbooks checked-in at the school.  Netbooks are primarily for use in classrooms but will not be used in all classes or at all times.   Students that do not have net books will not be penalized but may miss out on in-class activities and projects that require use of the netbook.

From the LWSD Connections Newsletter:

Laptops for Middle, High School Students
If you have a student in middle or high school, your student's school may already have issued laptops to every student. The Mobile Access for Students program brings mobile computing devices - such as laptops and netbooks - into the classroom to improve learning. The program is possible thanks to a technology levy passed by voters in 2010.

By the December winter break, students at every middle and high school will have a district laptop for use in school and at home. To ensure that the operation of checking out the laptops goes smoothly and has adequate technical support, schools have been assigned to one of three phases during the fall. Schools selected their phase based on their readiness operationally and instructionally for the devices.

We have prepared a Mobile Access for Students section on the district website with information on why this program will help your student's learning, how it works, and frequently asked questions. Some examples of the way these devices have affected learning at schools in our district that piloted their use tell the story of how they have changed teaching and learning.

The parent agreement form, student laptop handbook and information on parent/guardian responsibilities are all posted on the Program Operation page. In addition, a copy of an optional insurance policy is posted there so parents can see whether it may be of interest to their family.

If your student's school is in the second or third phase of the roll out, the school will provide plenty of information in advance. For those whose has already gotten their laptop, you may want to refer back to the district site if you have misplaced or forgotten any of the information.

Based on these facts, I have some concerns as a parent of a student in LWSD:
·       Insurance is not required, but students with no insurance will be required to leave the net books at the school.  The district has arranged for insurance coverage with families paying $50 for a policy specifically designed for technology such as the netbook.  At this time, it is unclear if that $50 is for a calendar year (January through December) or a school year (September through June).  Considering that many students will not receive their net books until December (as is reported in the case of Redmond Middle School), it is likely that some families will pay the insurance, effectively twice in a school year.
·       My homeowners insurance will cover the netbook, but does not cover technology, per se.  According to my agent “the policy isn't really designed very well to cover single items where the value isn't terribly high.”  Our deductible is basically going to cover the cost of replacement of the item and if it were stolen we would have to show proof of “break-in”.  If the netbook were left at school, or in a backpack or a friend’s car or (think of all the places your student has left their sweatshirt, hair bands, shoes, wallet and you get the picture), we couldn’t qualify that as “stolen” even if it were stolen.  The theft would have to have taken place in our home.  
·       Not every family in the LWSD has internet access.  Regardless of the fact that we are minutes away from Google, Microsoft and hundreds of other technology companies; there are people that live without high speed internet or any internet at all.  The district’s solution is to offer a low cost internet access for $10 per month to these families. 
·       If the district’s goal is to do away with textbooks, but not all students will be taking their net books home, then won’t those students still need textbooks to complete homework?  Will textbooks still be available for those that choose to bring them home or study without the aid of technology? 
·       Redmond High School has approximately 2,100 students in attendance.  Consider if just 10% of those students do not take the net books home; 210 students in line every morning to check out their net books and those same 210 students every afternoon back in line to check them back in.   And, who hasn’t had a library book that you’ve returned show up “missing” with a fine attached?
·       How many phones or other electronic items has your student lost, misplaced or damaged in a year time period?  As a parent, we deal with these things by requiring the child to pay for the repair or replacement, loss of activities, privileges or making them work it off with sweat equity.  Those options are still in the hands of parents, but first we must pay for the replacement or repair and THEN get blood from the turnips that are our children.  And, while they’re suffering the consequences of losing or damaging the first net book, they’re given a loaner one to use in the interim.  (If my child loses or damages his personal phone or laptop, he’s out of said device until he’s paid for repair or replacement. I’m not forking over more money so that he can do it again and again and…)
·       So, potentially, a parent could be paying $50 for insurance, $100 for internet coverage (for 10 months) and up to $500 to replace or repair the unit.  This is on top of the lunch fees (reduced or not), class activity fees, instrument fee, ASB, photos, field trip and school supply costs that families pay for annually.  And that’s not even counting tutoring, sports, mileage, fundraising, clothing and all those other little fees that add up and deplete our budgets (and need I mention senior year which is in a category of its own?).  Add to that more than one student in the district and you’ll need a part-time job just to break-even.
I’ve spoken to a couple of parents and students who have already used the net book system and for the most part it’s received good reviews.  The security is so tight that nothing else can be installed on the netbook; a search engine is reachable, but it’s limited access (so no searching for Budweiser Bikini Girls or whatever else it is that young teenage boys look up when the parental units aren’t looking).  One of my student friends reported that her teacher was going to ask for all reports and projects to be handed in electronically.  She says it’s easier to carry the netbook than carrying 50 lbs. of text books and cramming them in her locker.
The district’s motto is “Every child future ready” and I know technology is not just the future; it’s the here and now.  I’m concerned that with all these exercises to make our children future ready, the basics are being overlooked.

According to National Center for Education Statistics “On average, 3.4 percent of students who were enrolled in public or private high schools in October 2008 left school before October 2009 without completing a high school program (table 1).”

“Combining data from the 50 states and the District of Columbia, approximately 607,000 public high school students dropped out of grades 9–12 during the 2008–09 school year (data not shown in tables). This translates into an event dropout rate of 4.1 percent.”

Although there have been several reports that the district has scored highly in national testing and has improved recently; I wonder how many of these graduates are ready for the future.   Knowing how to operate a net book will not make up for the lack of spelling, vocabulary or comprehension skills that many high school students possess.  Having the opportunity to read and manipulate stories and projects in real time will not offset the lack of basic math knowledge or organizational skills necessary to compete and succeed in the current workforce.  Technology is many things, but the creator of knowledge it is not.

I am concerned that although test scores show improvements, our children are falling further and further behind in graduation standards, college preparedness and useful life skills.  Many students need tutoring just to keep up; not necessarily to take AP or other college level courses in secondary school. 

Some states no longer emphasize spelling or grammar since that knowledge is not required for state tests. As a result, middle school children may know the definition of SAT vocabulary words such as "perambulate" and "quiescent," but they don't know how to spell such basic words as "independence" or when to use commas or semicolons. Parents turn to tutors to help their kids bone up on these fundamentals.” 

“Findings released Monday by the non-profit College Board show that 57% of 2012 graduating seniors who took the SAT, which it owns, earned a combined score below what it says is necessary to show that students can earn a B-minus or better in the first year at a four-year college.”

I am not suggesting that we return to chalkboards and papyrus sheets in order for students to succeed; but it is imperative that we not overlook the necessity of basic educational skills in our quest to race our children to the future.

Paige Norman
Redmond, Washington

Friday, September 28, 2012

Just so you know…


I don’t put everything I think or want to say in this blog.  Someday, after I’m *gone*, someone will dig into my laptop hard drive and find all the horrible, hateful, mean-spirited, un-Christian things I’ve thought and said and written down but not posted for all the world to see.  My only hope is that by the time that all happens, the “OS” will have changed and someone will have to get a converter to read the “old” Word formatted documents and they won’t bother.

One of the reasons I write first on Word and then copy and post to Blogger is so that those terrible thoughts that cross my mind frequently do not end up in the blogosphere for all to read. 

I am outspoken and unkind and sarcastic and mean and all those other adjectives that I’m certain people must think about me when they read what I do post.  It’s a constant struggle to keep my mouth shut and reflect the person I think God wants me to be instead of the person I actually am.

Just so you know…

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Pollyanna’s Reality


The past few months I’ve been beginning my Facebook day with a post that says “God is Good!”  Today I’m thankful for…”

The thanks range from coffee (every.single.day), my husband, or walking with a friend.  Some of my friends have commented in a variety of ways; mostly positive. 

I have to admit that it hasn’t been easy to find something I’m thankful for every day; which is MY purpose for the whole exercise.  Sure, I’m VERY blessed.  We have a house, two cars, healthy kids and grand kids, my husband is employed and life is pretty darn good.

But let’s face it, reality reminds us every day about all the negatives we have to overcome.  The toilet still plugs, the laundry still piles up, the dog or the baby throws up.  Sleepless nights make working days drag by.  Children fail classes, we have to constantly re-arrange an over-booked calendar and the darn car needs gas again.  Groceries get more and more expensive, my husband (or kid or myself) broke another dish, and we stub our toe letting the cat out at night.  And the list goes on and on and…

So, I am trying every day to think of one good thing about the day.  I have rules, but they’re not hard and fast. 
  • I have to think of at least one thing every day I’m thankful for.
  • It cannot ALWAYS be coffee (although, trust me, at 6 AM I am ALWAYS thankful for coffee).
  • I will make every attempt not to be snarky or mean-spirited (For instance, I can’t say I’m thankful that your kid is not my kid).
  • It may be funny, but it should have some truth to it as well.
  • It may (or may not) be directed at a specific person.

It’s not as easy as you think.  So I start off in the morning and sometimes I can be thankful for something very easily.  And some other mornings (many, in fact) I’ve woken up wrong or my head/back/neck hurts or the alarm doesn’t go off or… and then I REALLY have to think of what I’m thankful for. 

  • I’m thankful that my husband has a job.  I’m not thankful that he has an hour commute or that he’s sometimes in a bad mood.  Or that he has to work weekends.  Or that the pager sometimes messes up our plans.
  • I’m thankful that my sons haven’t been injured in sports.  I’m thankful the ER doesn't know our family by name.  I’m thankful that I buy a lot of band-aids but don’t use very many.
  • I’m thankful that there’s a paycheck every two weeks that covers our expenses.  I’m not thankful that no matter how hard I try, there are always more expenses than money.
  • I’m thankful that I can work at home and have very flexible employers.
  • I’m thankful that I have friends who bring me gifts when I’m having a bad day. 


What do you have to be thankful for?  Think about it the next time you’re plunging the toilet or changing a diaper.  Try and find one good point about that negative thing that is really stressing you out.  It doesn’t make everything perfect or even close.  But you might find that you’ll be thankful for more than you realize.